Introduction: I discovered the writing of Cormac McCarthy in the 1990s. I was on a deployment in the Balkans during the Clinton administration. While the world was fascinated with Clinton’s doings with Monica and adulteries in the Oval Office, I was reading the works of Cormac McCarthy when I wasn’t on duty with my fellow soldiers in the Army, as the Serbs, Croats, Bosnians, Muslims, professing Christians, and others raged over the ethnic cleansing and crimes that characterized the former Yugoslavia. I read All the Pretty Horses first, and I was immediately and permanently hooked on McCarthy. That was nearly 25 years ago now, and I’m still reading him. 

McCarthy died a few weeks ago, and there is now a new interest in him, but I’ve been with him all along. In English, other than Shakespeare, Dickens, Milton, Faulkner, Hemingway (in his best early stories), and Flannery O’Connor, McCarthy’s tops for me. I’ve found no one who crafts sentences in English with such pathos, power, and soul-wrenching beauty. What Dante is to Italian, McCarthy is to American English. What Cervantes is to Spanish, McCarthy is to American English.

I read Horses again recently as well as several books of McCarthy scholarship, and again I was ridden across the bloodred ranges of sage, arroyos, and dry winds, where desert prophets expostulate under lightning storms, and Mexican beauties elicit knife fights, and the roasting of venison over the campfire draws wolves down from the hills.

Reasons I Read McCarthy:  

1. The beauty of language. Here is one example from when John Grady Cole reflects upon a girl: 

“ . . . and the sadness he’d first seen in the slope of her shoulders which he’d presumed to understand and of which he knew nothing and he felt a loneliness he’d not known since he was a child and he felt wholly alien to the world although he loved it still. He thought that in the beauty of the world were hid a secret. He thought the world’s heart beat at some terrible cost and that the world’s pain and its beauty moved in a relationship of diverging equity and that in this headlong deficit the blood of multitudes might ultimately be exacted for the vision of a single flower” (282).

If you’ve a soul, if you’re not dead to beauty, if you’ve ever loved and admitted it to yourself, and felt your heart long to utter that beauty is the voice of God to wrestle the souls of men from slumber, those words from McCarthy will speak to you. What does it reveal if they do not? 

2. His assessment of man’s destruction of creation. Whether it’s McCarthy’s Border Trilogy, or The Road, or earlier masterpieces like Suttree, The Orchard Keeper, and Outer Dark, McCarthy’s important because he understands the distinction between stewardship and rapacity. Man is brutal, and McCarthy dramatizes said brutality beautifully.

Some Concluding Thoughts: I have my own contribution to McCarthy coming soon, but if nothing else, I invite readers to try McCarthy if you’ve not before. And if you have and found him tough, well, he is. He’s not for the bottom shelf; he never settled for that. But if you’ll do the work, slow down and think of what he’s saying (and saying beautifully), you will discover what great literature does: it moves souls, speaks the unspeakable, and reminds you of mystery and of what matters.

A buddy of mine sent me a couple of pictures that I had to share. If these are not visual homilies I don’t know what would qualify as such.

I was in Maine recently and was educated by lobster fishermen on their way of life. What a great trip. I am so grateful to have been able to attend and to get to reconnect with an old friend and some fellow chaplains.

It was rough to reenter the heat and humidity of Georgia after enjoying the temperatures of Maine, but as the flight descended into Atlanta, the heat and haze of July in GA came on like a wet wool blanket even as the quartz dome of ATL (Stone Mountain) came into view, and the city of Atlanta stood steaming in the morning haze.

When I got home, one of the girls was watching me.

And later one of the boys was lying down in the back, too, in the shade on these hot hazy days.

Thankful to have been part of some excellent training and equipping of chaplains for the Army and Air Force over recent days in Maine. I was able to reconnect with some buddies from the past and meet some new ones. And we were able to explore some of beautiful Maine, where it’s all-things-lobster here, or as it sounds to the ears when locals speak, “lobsta.”

Maine folks, you have a beautiful section of creation you get to call home. Steward well. It’s certainly blessed by powerful hands and abundant with beautiful and abundant resources.

I could not sleep last night. So I got up while it was quite dark still, having decided to go for a walk. When I had my shorts, t-shirt, and shoes on, I opened the door and stepped out into a wall of warmth and humidity that was a dragon. If you have never been in the Southeast in July, may I suggest something? You don’t want to meet this dragon. Just picture walking out of a cool shower, drying off, having a cool drink of water, and then opening the door to hell where Satan’s minions dress you in a wool blanket and then you’re tasked with gathering firewood for the bonfire slated for high noon.

The moon was nearly full, too, and I could see long distances in the hazy, humid, early morning air. No breeze stirred. I could hear the early morning birds chitter in the brush and trees, and the thrum of cicadas and frogs completed the music. No vehicles were on the roads. I anticipated a very quiet time for a walk.

When I was about 1.5 miles into it, I could feel something. You know the sense we get when we feel eyes upon us? I looked ahead and this doe was at the edge of some kudzu, munching on grasses by the jogging trail. She let me get very close to her.

I was already sweating a lot due to the heat and humidity, so I know she had to have smelled me, but she stood next to me long enough for me to take her picture.

I continued for a few slow miles. Some redbirds and sparrows played by me and along the trail, perhaps snatching some flying insects that buzzed around the lights along the trail that still were on. And I continued.

When I reached my turnaround spot and returned towards my place, again I could feel eyes. I looked up and some fawns hopped up from where they were bed in the grass.

When they scurried off, their mom came bounding across the trail in front of me. I had not even seen her. She was right beside me essentially, munching under a massive oak tree. When she saw her babies, she ran right to them in a flash. The fawns tried to get under their mother to nurse but she pushed them away and simply watched me until I passed their area.

I don’t know how one is not moved by such scenes. They grip my heart each time I see them. Maybe it was good that I could not sleep last night. Why? Because I got up and went for what I thought would be an uneventful walk to clear my head. But I was treated to the sights and sounds, the white light of the moon over all this heat and haze. And, well, it was pretty darn sweet.

I was able to come home recently after working away for some time and had a chance to go by the pool. The water felt good. The sun felt steady and warm upon the skin. Classic tunes from Jackson Browne, Steely Dan, Gordon Lightfoot, Kenny Loggins, and John Mayer played from my JBL speaker.

Kids ran and jumped and played in the water. Moms and dads and grandparents sat poolside scrolling on their phones or napping or watching other people.

When it came time to leave, we crossed through the gate and I, always reading something, looked up to see this sign:

I am sure 99.9% of people would either not notice or, what’s worse, not care. But I shook my head and my mood plummeted, as if I had fallen into the deep end of the pool of linguistic despair.

Folks, when we cannot even spell restroom correctly, it’s no wonder our star has long faded. Maybe the man’s head was missing because he had been a grammarian, and he died of a brainplosion (new word; you’re welcome).

Near where I currently work from there is a bridge over one of the town’s main roads. And under that bridge I often see homeless men and women. Very often, they stagger erratically on the concrete under the bridge or on the paved roads near traffic or on the worn grass near the yield sign.

I use the road frequently. But each time I near it, my stomach experiences a sickening feeling . . . because I know what I am going to see. I am going to see an emaciated black man in a stained t-shirt gesticulating with his hands, as if he’s a bewitched prophet talking of demons. When the traffic light is red and I have been waiting for the light to change, the other drivers and I will see him. He will stumble around in figure eight patterns, his arms and hands flailing, speaking gibberish loudly, making no sense. Back and forth he will go, on a verbal screed.

But today it was not that man; it was this woman. She seemed not so much sitting as collapsing. Under what exactly? A hangover, fentanyl, heroin, meth, exhaustion, shame, loneliness, abandonment? I don’t know. Maybe one or more of those or perhaps none of them or perhaps a combination, I just don’t know.

What I do know, however, is the conflict that runs through my stomach, my heart, my gut, my mind. Each time I near this section of town, I feel it. Should I roll down my car window and offer money? Should I offer to pray? Should I offer to take these people to a shelter? Should I keep my window rolled up as I wait for the traffic light to change, and pretend I don’t see them? As if that fools anyone.

What I am about to say may turn some people off. That is okay, because I know in my bones that what I’m going to say is true: evil is real. Demons are real. Spiritual warfare is real. You can feel it; you can see demons in certain people’s eyes; you can see that invisible forces are moving the hands and tongues of men and women who are oppressed by the supernatural spirits.

Sometimes I wish I could say that I got out of my car, gave these people food, took them to my place so they could shower, took them for a haircut and a new change of clothes, and that it all worked out like a sentimental movie. But that is not the case, at least with me. I simply looked. And knew. And grieved. And did nothing except express on the page how this world is. And how it’s full of the broken. And how evil and suffering are real. And how it’s much harder to know what’s the right thing to do in a world where it’s hard to trust even the woman collapsed under the bridge or the man muttering saliva-ridden screeds to the people in their vehicles with the windows up.

My buddy Greg sends me names of authors from whom he thinks I would benefit. Very often he hits the bull’s-eye. He tends to find them via YouTube and/or podcasts. So he gives many a listen and shares with me some he thinks I need to be familiar with, and I am grateful.

Paul Kingsnorth is a most interesting writer and thinker. He came out of an eco-terrorism globalist background. He tried Buddhism. He tried atheism. But he could not shake the realities of creation as beautiful (so there must be an Author who is beauty Himself). And he could not shake the realities of conscience (the moral law within put there by the Author of life). And he could not rid himself of his own sin nature (his depravity was clear to him; he did not lie to himself). And on and on it went.

Why steward creation if man is just matter in motion, he asked himself.

The biblical view of creation, of man, of sin, of redemption–it alone explained the totality of man and his place in the cosmos. Such was the outcome of Kingsnorth’s intellectual pilgrimage.

This book by Kingsnorth is of his pilgrimage before he became a Christian. I could not put it down. Why? Because of its being so well-written, for one thing, but also because it was authentic. He did not hide his struggles, his questions, his anxieties about his desires for him, his wife, their children, their leaving London and moving to the countryside in Ireland. It was simply beautiful.

Again, in this book, Kingsnorth does not detail his becoming a Christian, but if you enjoy seeing a person following ideas to their logical outworkings, following ideas to their consequences, this is a beautiful read. It’s also about his struggles to express himself well and to do it with honesty.

Thank you, Greg, for turning me on to Kingsnorth.

In reading through Kingsnorth’s books, I found that he is a fan of Claire Keegan, and so I picked up one of her books, too. An Irish writer, and wow!, what a beautiful storyteller of terrible abuses against Irish girls. Condoned by the Roman Catholic Church and the Irish government, this is a story of abused girls under the covering of false religion and power. Keegan’s story of what Furlong finds (Furlong is the main character) will break your heart, if you have one, and you’ll be better off because of it.

Tolle Lege.

I have a few authors who have shaped me in ways I can never repay. Near the top is Schaeffer. He taught me how to think, in so many ways, of the beauty and coherence of the Christian worldview, the majesty of the Bible, the authority of the holy Word from the sovereign God.

And he taught me how God is NEVER silent.

He speaks … through hummingbirds, through the smell of the infant, through the beauty of the woman.

My thanks to my buddy BB for more of his pictures.

This past week I was in D.C. to minister to soldiers there. Being on the road alone so often can take a toll on one’s soul, even if one loves to travel. Airport after airport, hotel after hotel, city after city. But I love getting to see the most interesting of people. Let me phrase it this way: One can see travelers who value nothing quite so much as their own comfort. You might see this type person with slip-on sandals for shoes, a pillow the size of a small country, a blanket, and a smartphone the size of Alaska.

Another type of traveler is nearly opposite. He or she seems that he/she spent the first three hours of the day in front of a mirror to make certain that he/she turns heads in the airport. Not a hair out of place, a crease in the slacks, a purse with the label facing outward so gazers will know and perhaps envy.

Still another type is the tech junkie. A tablet, a laptop, a smartphone, earbuds, a smartwatch, and on and on. Wherever these types tested on the scale of aptitude, I am on the opposite end. Leave me to pen and paper and the bank of a slow river in spring. You carry on with your TikTok videos and memes. Never the twain shall meet. You can send me a Tweet I’ll never see and I can write you a real letter you’ll never read because it’s in cursive.

Still another type is the reader. I know these types. I see one when I shave each morning. These types are usually hunkered down near the coffee shop tables between flights with a novel or non-fiction book, often sipping a coffee or tea, or perhaps gazing between chapters at tech junkies with a look of perplexity or consternation.

This was my perspective at Reagan Airport in D.C. this week as I waited on my next flight. I was across from the bookstore and just down the corridor from Chick-fil-A (so it had to be good, right?). I love this little area. The windows behind me allow natural light to come through and light the floors and environs. As one who eschews flourescent light, I love this spot. Flourescence is still there, but the sunlight helps.

As we departed D.C. it was rainy again and gray, an English sky. But as we entered the skies of southern Virginia and North Carolina, the sun broke through. As I looked from my seat, the clouds appeared again and the firmament changed colors, and I could see VA and NC 36,000 feet below, and I watched the tips of the plane’s wings undulate amidst some bumps as we traversed the skies.

As we flew to GA and Atlanta came into view, I saw once again what we call the “Big Rock,” or Stone Mountain on the east side of the city.

When I got home, I was tired. But I was able to see my bride, play with my dogs, hug my son, watch my dogs (and cat), go to the pool to cool off, sleep in my own bed on sheets I too seldom feel, eat a home-cooked meal, and just be.

Some folks may scoff at home and hearth. I’m not one of those. There is, as Frank Baum wrote, no place like it.

P.S. Lady says hi. As do some of the deer.

I was standing in the lobby waiting to link up with Jay, my point of contact for the event where I was teaching soldiers. I could feel someone approaching me. I looked up. But it was not Jay, the hotel employee. It was a man that I could tell had served in the military. He walked up to me, a hint of recognition in his eyes. He extended his arm to shake hands.

“Good afternoon, sir,” I said.

“What brings you here, soldier?”

“I’m leading an event for some soldiers, and they recommended this place as a venue they’d like to use,” I said. “I worked the request and it worked out. So we’re here for training.”

Looking around at the lobby, I said, “I like their choice. I’m just waiting to link up with one of the employees so I can do a little reconnnaissance and get my bearings. Training begins tomorrow morning.”

“You’ll like it. I’ve got my grandboys here. They’re swimming currently with one of my sons.”

“What brings you here, sir?”

“My grandsons love this place. I served in Vietman from 1970 to ’71,” he said.

“Which branch?” I asked.

“Marine Corps. I was a grunt.”

“Welcome home, Marine,” I said.

“What do you do?” he asked.

“I’m an Army chaplain.”

“A chaplain? Well, chaplain, let me tell you. I was saved finally in the 1980s, after finally giving in. I had run for a long time. I now run a Christian organization in Pennsylvania to reach veterans. We take guys out to hunt and fish and we give them what they don’t get from the world,” he said.

“Yes, sir,” I said. I looked at his blue short-sleeve shirt. Over the left breast of his shirt was a logo with a pair of dog tags and a Scripture reference from Luke 5, and the name of his Christian ministry. And his cap had MARINES written on it.

We talked for several minutes. He told me of where he was in Vietnam, of his time being a grunt, of his unit, of how his whole life changed after Vietnam. He talked for some time about his brothers, guys that self-destructed after Vietnam, even after making it through the war.

It was coming back to the other wars afterwards that did many of his brothers in, he said. “That’s why I do ministry now,” he said, “to show them there’s an answer. I’ve lost too many.”

“Chaplain, can I give you something?”

“Sure, sir.”

He reached in his right pocket and came out with a coin. “I’d like you to have this. Thank you for what you do,” he said, gripping my hand.

“Thank you, sir,” I said. “I think we’re in the same line of work. I really appreciate it.”

We could have talked more but I saw Jay, the hotel employee, looking at me from a counter nearby.

“I see the fellow I’m supposed to meet. I better go link up with him, sir,” I said.

“Understood, chaplain.”